spiritual religion 1

I was raised jewish, initiated by a hindu swami at 18. developed an intimate relationship

with jesus at 19. joined a spiritual community at 20. lived there for 15 years, practicing meditation, judeochristian/lemurian/hindu/hopi/extraterrestrial teachings. Upon leaving there i embraced first nation/native american teachings/ way of life and became a pipe carrier. Later I became a sufi.

One thing I know is that all these ways are related and have the same purpose.

They are all included in the great OM, the sound containing all sounds. Like different songs played on the same instrument.

I want to share with you some of my experiences inspired through the great religions of the world. For there are fantastic gifts in all of them.

my intention is the same as the religions intentions -that we humans can come to know God.

My first true story is my experience of the christian mass....

I have participated in the Eucharist ceremony a handful of times over the last 20 some years. Every time I am overwhelmed to tears from the experience. I feel the spirit of jesus descend and fill the space of the church as the priests talk about him-calling in his presence.

When I go to the aisle and up to the altar I am already crying. When I physically receive the wafer and wine as a symbolic act of receiving his body and blood, it doesn't feel symbolic. I am every time completely overwhelmed with the most amazingly powerful energy of love. I simply cannot begin to contain it. I am a sobbing wreck of body drowning in a sea of love. This continues until the service is over. People discreetly and not so discreetly stare at me. I am wondering why all of us are not drowning.

After the first time I did this I thought it would be a one time peak experience. But the next time and the next was equally powerful. now you know why I do it rarely. it is just too much. How I wish to grow into the ability to handle such boundless love.

When I first began to cultivate my relationship with jesus at age 19 he was a very personal teacher. He taught me like an elder brother. Treated me like an equal. There was not that distance of me being human and jesus being god. It was more like “these things I do you can do also, even greater things.”

what a great teacher. The one who wants to share everything they know with you. The one who knows you are no less than them.

It took me a long time to learn that I am god too, and even now that I know this I cannot live it like jesus did.

But I can open up to it a little more every day. I can let in as much love as I can take every day knowing that although I may only hold the tiniest bit more, it is still more.

I have jesus to thank for introducing me to the boundless sea of love that we all swim in. and I can remember the saying -”the fish in the water is not thirsty”.